This is my final post.
Very often in life, the ends do not justify the means. We do not defeat evil by allowing it, ever.
I have given God the benefit of the doubt dozens of times over the past eighteen months. Gradually, over time, and leading up to the recent deception by Him, I realised He just doesn’t know what love is at all. He’s all talk, but His actions through the entirety of human existence have been evident of a lack of love, and through my time with the Word in my flesh too. Truly miserable times, for eighteen months.
Events that have transpired here for me in the previous four nights at Satan’s hands that were of a nature that no human should be expected to suffer, let alone a human who has the Holy Spirit and lives righteously, working for God. But I know that many many other humans have suffered the same atrocity or very similar, and no action has ever been taken to stop it from happening again, Satan and his team are allowed to do their evil will on humanity, God just watches, and laughs, and our man in heaven, Yahshua, has sat by passively for over two thousand years too, compliant with a regime that views humanity as playthings in a story, a game, created by someone who didn’t know what He was doing. A mere eight hours on a cross would have been a piece of cake compared to what I went through, especially as Yahshua then ascended to heaven, away from this world, whereas I am still here, each day worst than the last. I was forsaken by God for four days before He stepped in (I think), but I am not dead, and I now choose to stay as far away from God and the evil ones that surround Him as I possibly can. Will they leave me in peace? Knowing them, I doubt it, Satan disobeyed a direct command this time, and there are millions of others like him out there. Doesn’t matter, my time of service to Him is over. No one cares anyway, apart from my couple of friends.
So, no more posts, the website will remain as a record of my experiences until the annual hosting runs out, then it will vanish. I am the only man to truly get to know God, resulting in a dislike of Him so strong that I desire not be in the same universe as Him at all, elimination of my body and soul would be the greatest gift He could give to me now.
I am sure He was expecting this, so He will have other remedial plans or will come up with something, but if He doesn’t, we can look forward to Him utterly destroying the world on 7th September 2032. I pray He does, in Yahshua’s name, for all of our sakes, it may be the only way to escape from this hellish prison planet. Amen.
**Edit 2nd November 2021**
I just wrote a post ‘Sorcery’, which contained the following, which I thought ought to be copied into this post, as it does explain that my turmoil above was expected by my Father, as it was prophesied in Psalm 73:
I give thanks to my Father for His love and steadfast support for me, I have felt deeply unworthy of both during those two months I have to say. But He will never desert me, so I am always comforted by that fact. I haven’t listened to the scriptures much at all during the past two months, but I did yesterday, and the second chapter to play was Psalm 73, which has verses which speak in prophesy about this precise moment in my life:
21When my heart was grieved
and I was pierced within,
22I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before You.
23Yet I am always with You;
You hold my right hand.
24You guide me with Your counsel,
and later receive me in glory.
25Whom have I in heaven but You?
And on earth I desire no one besides You.
26My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
27Those far from You will surely perish;
You destroy all who are unfaithful to You.
28But as for me, it is good to draw near to God.
I have made the Lord God Yehovah my refuge,
that I may proclaim all Your works.
Senseless and ignorant and a brute beast, that nicely sums up my state of mind and behaviour during September and October, but the other verses are spot on too, thankfully. As I have said before, it’s not much fun being me at present, but I have faith I will enjoy my ministry more and more as time passes, and once my kingdom is established on earth, the good times will really begin in earnest.
There will be a happy ending, for God’s people, for my Father Himself, for all of His creation, including the whole of humanity and the heavenly host too. Spoiler alert: we all really do live happily ever after. So, have faith.
**Edit, 20th December 2021**
A further edit to this post, as my Father has shown me that the events that shocked and upset me so much were His doing, and were for a specific purpose in my life, to teach me something, and to cure me of something bad. It was a tough way to learn a hard lesson, but it was successful, so I give thanks to my Father for His usual direct approach to these matters, shall we call it ‘tough love’? I should perhaps wait a while before writing blog posts, to allow for clarity to be provided to me. I hope that such times are behind me, but I trust in God, whatever comes along, we will stick closely together. I pray that is the same in your life.